It has been more than 8 months since I left you - my friends, dormitory room, boyfriend and cat in Prague, Czech Republic. Sorry guys back home, I know I promissed so many of you to start a blog and keep you updated on how the "land of freedom and unlimited possibilities" is treating me and I actually tried to do a little something (it's not even worth clicking unless you want to download some cat paintings). Looking at it now I feel like it was written by a completely different person. Let's hope this will be less dumb and will last a bit longer.
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Two years ago I was working as a project specialist in Prague. I have just got my master degree in math and I thought that I am supposed to get a real job, appartment and PhD somewhere on the way - to be able to get a better job and bigger appartmetnt - and generally become a serious person.
After 88 days of being serious I was standing in my boss's office in tears telling him I was quitting because I felt useless ... it's hard to be implacable in the middle of a nervous breakdown and so I've spent another 10 months working for them. Don't take me wrong, I loved the people I was working with and wasn't so bad in what I was doing, but I needed a somewhat bigger challenge in my life than surviving till friday afternoon.
Challenge. I don't remember when and how exactly I got to know about the Fulbright programme and I didn't want to go to the US, I just wanted to try whether I would be able to get one those incredibly generous scholarships they were awarding. After all if they choose me, I can always say "no", right?
On friday August 11, 2006 I found myself standing at the San Francisco International Airport with two suitcases and a realization that I am going to spend the next ten months in the United states.
Do you sometimes feel like you have just turned your life upside down and inside out just because it sounded like a good idea and not because you would have thought through all the options and consequences and cautiosly decided that this is the best thing to do?
I do. All the time.
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